This NDE Will Give You Goosebumps - Man Dies, Discovers We Create Heaven With Our Breath

Vinney Tolman shares his extraordinary near-death experience after accidentally ingesting a toxic dose of a bodybuilding supplement. He describes the sensation of leaving his body, watching the emergency response from above, and hearing the thoughts of those around him, including a rookie EMT who felt a sudden urge to check his pulse despite Vinney being declared dead.

During his three days in a coma, Vinney traveled to a heavenly realm where he experienced a profound life review and met his spiritual guide, Drake. He describes the overwhelming love emanating from the grass, flowers, and trees, and how a stream of liquid light healed the trauma and scars on his soul.

Upon returning to his body, Vinney struggled to adjust to earthly life but eventually embraced his mission. He shares powerful lessons about using our breath to access heaven on Earth, understanding our planet as a grad school for souls, and recognizing that we are the creators of our own realities.

Key takeaways

• Our breath holds the power of heaven, allowing us to shift our consciousness and lower stress through deep, intentional breathing.
• Earth serves as a challenging grad school for souls, where even our failures are celebrated as valuable experiences for growth.
• We are the creators of our own realities, and the outside world acts as a direct reflection of our inner state.
• True healing comes from allowing our bodies to feel and release fear rather than resisting or avoiding it.
• The afterlife is a transitional space of immense, unconditional love where souls go to heal, recharge, and prepare for their next purpose.

Highlights

• 0:45 — The Toxic Supplement and Dying
• 2:27 — Watching His Body From Above
• 6:12 — Hearing the Rookie EMT's Thoughts
• 13:28 — Entering the Realm of Heaven
• 24:44 — Healing the Soul with Liquid Light
• 33:11 — Creating Heaven With Our Breath
• 40:54 — Discovering the Identity of Guide Drake
• 48:14 — Earth as a Grad School for Souls

00:00:00 Intro
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00:29:30 Being Sent Back to Earth
00:33:11 Heaven Is In Our Breath
00:40:54 Discovering Who Guide Drake Is
00:45:51 Allow The Body To Tell Its Story
00:48:03 Earth Is A Grad School
00:51:15 Jesus Is For Everyone
00:55:14 Connect with Vinney

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