> ## Content Index > Fetch the complete content index at: https://famouspsychicmediums.com/llms.txt > Use this file to discover other available public pages before exploring further. # Susan Grau on Death, Departure & Communicating with the Other Side - URL: https://famouspsychicmediums.com/episodes/susan-grau-on-death-departure-communicating-with-the-other-side/ - Published: 2026-10-16T20:38:31.000Z - Updated: 2026-10-16T20:38:31.000Z - Description: Intuitive medium Susan Grau joins Natalia Benson to share her journey through a near-death experience, childhood trauma, and communicating with the other side. Discover how evidential mediumship heals grief and learn practical tools to perceive signs from crossed-over loved ones. - Author: Ian Ross - Tags: Famous Mediums In this episode, host Natalia Benson sits down with intuitive medium and author Susan Grau to explore the journey of communicating with the spirit realm, healing from grief, and embracing soul-level growth. Susan shares her early childhood near-death experience inside an unplugged freezer, which opened her spiritual sight and initiated her lifelong connection to the unseen world. Susan explains how grief impacts human energy, discussing why individuals in deep sorrow may struggle to feel signs from crossed-over loved ones. She breaks down the role of evidential mediumship in bringing comfort and peace, offering practical guidance like her Awareness, Acceptance, and Action framework to help listeners open their perception to spirit presence without fear. Throughout the conversation, Susan reflects on navigating profound personal losses, channeling her book Infinite Life, Infinite Lessons, and distinguishing between the roles of spirit guides and angels. Her insights remind listeners that soul energy is indestructible, love is the highest vibration, and our challenges ultimately serve our journey toward self-love. ### Key takeaways - Near-death experiences and deep childhood trauma can unlock heightened spiritual perception and intuitive mediumship abilities. - Grief is a natural, universal process that cannot be rushed, and supporting someone in grief simply requires holding loving presence. - Evidential mediumship offers validation by delivering specific personality traits, shared memories, or details that confirm a loved one's presence. - Lower energetic vibrations caused by intense grief can make it harder to sense signs, but tools like Awareness, Acceptance, and Action help open communication. - Spirit guides offer firm directional lessons based on earthly experience, while angels surround us with pure, gentle healing love. ### Highlights - 2:03 — Susan details her childhood near-death experience in an unplugged freezer - 15:11 — Susan opens up about severe childhood trauma and family losses - 17:46 — Advice on how to comfortably hold space for someone in deep grief - 26:30 — How evidential mediumship provides peace and validation after loss - 44:00 — The sloth, butterfly, and hummingbird analogy for spiritual vibrations - 46:48 — The Awareness, Acceptance, and Action framework for connecting with spirit - 51:40 — Susan recounts her late brother visiting her and showing his life review - 58:35 — Explaining the distinct differences between spirit guides and angels ```chapters 00:00:00 Introduction and Welcome 00:01:41 Susan's Near-Death Experience 00:11:14 Discovering Her Mediumship Abilities 00:14:32 Processing Personal Trauma and Loss 00:17:46 Supporting Loved Ones in Deep Grief 00:22:06 The Universal Nature of Grief 00:26:30 How Evidential Mediumship Brings Healing 00:32:36 Stories of Unforgettable Mediumship Readings 00:36:24 Understanding How Spirits Communicate 00:43:32 Navigating Vibrations and Recognizing Signs 00:46:48 The Three-Step Tool for Spirit Connection 00:49:11 Unbelievable Astral and Afterlife Encounters 00:56:26 Channeling Her Book, Infinite Life, Infinite Lessons 00:58:35 Distinguishing Spirit Guides From Angels 01:01:25 Where to Find Susan Grau ``` ```vtt WEBVTT 00:00:00.160 --> 00:00:05.920 I<00:00:00.560> really<00:00:00.880> believe<00:00:01.199> that<00:00:01.439> we<00:00:01.680> have<00:00:01.839> been<00:00:02.000> taught<00:00:02.560> to<00:00:02.800> think<00:00:02.960> with<00:00:03.200> our<00:00:03.439> brains<00:00:03.840> and<00:00:04.160> limit<00:00:04.480> our<00:00:04.720> beliefs. 00:00:05.920 --> 00:00:13.759 Wow.<00:00:07.440> Unfortunately,<00:00:08.320> we<00:00:08.480> need<00:00:08.639> to<00:00:08.800> highlight<00:00:09.280> highlight<00:00:09.840> underline<00:00:10.320> that<00:00:10.800> when<00:00:11.040> you<00:00:11.120> have<00:00:11.280> limiting<00:00:11.679> beliefs,<00:00:12.160> you<00:00:12.400> absolutely<00:00:12.880> 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