My Story Between Worlds & Live Readings

In this candid live episode, Scott Cruz opens up about his personal journey, detailing his earliest encounters with the supernatural as a child, navigating severe trauma and religious cult abuse, and eventually accepting his gifts as a physical medium and intuitive mentor. He reflects on how confronting painful past experiences empowered him to break free from fear and build an authentic spiritual practice.

The episode begins with an extended collective card reading focused on coming to terms with the past, solidifying one's identity, and balancing divine masculine and feminine energies ahead of Scorpio season. Scott emphasizes that true spiritual awakening isn't about ignoring hardship, but using life's lessons to gain emotional clarity and reclaim control over one's life.

Scott transitions into answering live listener questions, offering intuitive insights on career moves, personal relationships, mental health, and artistic pursuits. He closes the stream by sharing his thoughts on emerging AI technology, creative expression, and a playback of his lyric video for Reason.

Key takeaways

• True spiritual awakening involves embracing your past experiences and trauma rather than trying to erase or ignore them.
• Balancing divine masculine stability with divine feminine creativity helps solidify your authentic identity and boundaries.
• Intuitive alignment requires taking physical action and appreciating current circumstances rather than relying solely on passive manifestation.
• Overcoming personal hardship can serve as the foundation for mentoring and supporting others through their own healing journeys.
• Direct confrontation and standing up for truth are essential aspects of spiritual growth and living authentically.

Highlights

• 5:16 — Collective Card Reading for the Week
• 18:35 — Solidifying Your Identity and Boundaries
• 22:25 — Early Childhood Experiences with Poltergeists
• 32:00 — Surviving Cult Trauma and Conversion Therapy
• 45:35 — Past Life Aggression as Giuliano de' Medici
• 55:00 — Reading Tamra Judge on The Real Housewives
• 1:07:00 — Live Audience Intuitive Readings
• 1:38:40 — Exploring AI for Creative Visuals

00:00:00 Welcome to the Cruziverse
00:05:16 Collective Energy Card Reading
00:18:35 Solidifying Identity and Inner Power
00:22:25 Childhood Supernatural Experiences and Poltergeists
00:32:00 Religious Cult Trauma and Overcoming Adversity
00:44:00 Past Life Aggressions and Physical Mediumship
00:55:00 Real Housewives Readings and TV Breakout
01:07:00 Live Intuitive Audience Readings
01:38:40 AI Tools and Creative Evolution
01:41:30 Final Messages and Reason Lyric Video

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