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# A Father’s Final Apology | Live Medium Reading | with Connie Fusella Part 2 #502
- URL: https://famouspsychicmediums.com/episodes/a-fathers-final-apology-live-medium-reading-with-connie-fusella-part-2-502/
- Published: 2026-10-05T14:00:36.000Z
- Updated: 2026-10-27T15:36:32.000Z
- Description: Dr. Amy Robbins hosts medium Connie Fusella for a live reading with guest Lorie, bringing through powerful messages of apology, healing, and love from Lorie's late father and daughter while exploring how mediumship supports emotional recovery.
- Author: Angie Li
- Tags: Find a Medium

In part two of this series, Dr. Amy Robbins hosts Forever Family Foundation certified medium Connie Fusella for a live reading with guest Lorie. With no prior contact or background information, Connie connects with spirit figures in Lorie's life, beginning with her father. He brings forward messages validating his medical history, acknowledges family dynamics, and delivers a heartfelt apology for his past distance, encouraging Lorie to embrace self-care and self-forgiveness.

Connie also connects with Lorie's late daughter, Asia, delivering powerful messages surrounding her sudden passing, her struggles with bipolar disorder, and her enduring love for her mother. From specific personal validations like childhood nicknames and favorite signs to deep emotional reckonings, the reading offers profound comfort and reassurance.

Following the reading, Dr. Amy Robbins and Lorie discuss how mediumship can be integrated into psychological healing and grief processing. They examine the importance of self-compassion, releasing parental guilt, and taking meaningful steps forward in personal growth and life transitions.

### Key takeaways

- Mediumship can serve as a powerful tool for grief and emotional healing when integrated with self-reflection or therapy.
- Messages from loved ones in spirit often focus on validation, reassurance, and encouraging living relatives to practice self-care.
- Apologies from passed family members can assist surviving relatives in releasing long-held dynamic tensions and emotional burdens.
- Unintentional loss from mental health and addiction struggles often comes with spirit messages reassuring parents against self-blame.
- Personal signs, nicknames, and spirit validations provide comfort that connection with loved ones endures beyond physical life.

### Highlights

- 2:10 — Live medium reading begins with guest Lorie
- 5:42 — Father figure brings forward health details and pacemaker validation
- 7:13 — Connection with Grandmother Elizabeth
- 9:07 — Father shares messages of regret and an apology
- 12:17 — Validation of Lorie's nursing degree
- 16:32 — Message encouraging Lorie to prioritize self-care
- 21:05 — Lorie's daughter Asia steps through in spirit
- 23:47 — Validations including butterflies and childhood nickname Froggy
- 27:36 — Dr. Amy Robbins and Lorie debrief the emotional reading
- 32:10 — Discussing forgiveness, self-compassion, and releasing parental guilt
- 36:26 — Navigating living alone and stepping into personal growth
- 41:44 — The 444 angel number wrap-up

```chapters
00:00:00 Bridging Grief and Healing
00:01:24 How Connie Works
00:02:56 A Father Steps Forward
00:06:33 Grandmother Elizabeth
00:08:25 A Child Spirit and Dog
00:10:15 A Father's Regret
00:12:17 The Nursing Degree
00:15:00 A Younger Female Spirit
00:16:32 Time for Self-Care
00:20:16 Rabbit and Purple Flowers
00:21:05 Daughter Asia Comes Through
00:23:47 Butterflies and Froggy
00:26:36 Twin Grandkids and a Hawk
00:32:10 Forgiveness for All
00:36:26 Learning to Live Alone
00:42:19 The 444 Sign
```

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